sunday morning

Chase this light with me.

2009-12-04T21:46:42Z

So, it's near the end of 2009. Everything in my life is completely different from when I started this journal (and last posted, really)... Right now is a really hard time for me. Chris, whom I've been with for four and a half years, is in jail. I'm living with his grandmother's family (fucking riot, let me tell you). I just finished my first semester of college (well... finals are next week, so maybe that's technically finishing), and I kind of want to hit reboot on friendships.

I had some great friends growing up. Since been with Chris, I unintentionally wrote everyone off. I drifted into my own happy little world, and now that he is temporarily out of my life, I find that I have no one. Well, a couple people who I call "friends" but who don't know me. I can honestly say the last time I was truly myself was in Mississippi, right before Katrina. Katie Scott got to see the best of me. It's like that person disappeared, I don't understand it.

But I'm still here. Still Blake, and still hoping there's those quirky few I can connect with socially.

/wave.

Hello, all my old buds!

2009-01-05T01:48:14Z

I can't believe this journal still exists =P had it for 5 years now. Hope you all are doing well. Take care! (hit me up @ clear.singularity@gmail.com, it's the only thing I check consistently)

cryptogenic @ 2006-12-18T19:57:00

2006-12-19T01:55:41Z

If I started posting again, would you read?

cryptogenic @ 2006-10-31T18:30:00

2006-11-01T00:30:04Z

fuck holidays.

i like to take up space just because i can

2006-10-27T23:01:33Z

Fucking Peak Oil ignorant motherfuckers. Fucking 9/11 truthers. Fuck them all. Yes, I'm one of both of those categories. I make sense to me. but, goddamnit, I just vented and it felt fucking great.

fuck you & your untouchable face.

2006-10-25T21:04:32Z

I'm back. A lot of you probably might not remember me, but I believe I need a venting space once again. So, here I am. Hello to all. Ani still rocks.

Blake.

cryptogenic @ 2006-02-06T21:27:00

2006-02-07T03:27:16Z

happy early birthday lovemecinnamon!

i want a monument to the friendship that we never had erected

2006-02-01T21:39:41Z

I've created an Ani art community i'd like all of you to join. You don't have to even be all that good with graphic arts to criticize or enjoy ani art. Anyone can join, and i'd love it if you did. :)

ani_creations

cryptogenic @ 2006-01-03T22:14:00

2006-01-04T04:16:44Z

we've all been in financially fucked situations, correct? each one of us.

i have a favor to ask and if you want to say "FUCK. YOU." go right ahead. january's a rough month on bills and any little bit could help. i will repay you. i just got hired at waffle house and i should be making $50 - $75 a day in tips. if you're willing to help, at all, please... please do.

my paypal address is fauxwinter@gmail.com

i would be forever in your debt. please, i'll never ask any of you this again.

thank you...

if not, that's okay. i'll find a way, somehow.

you give us a tantrum and a know-it-all grin, just when we need one, when the evening is thin.

2006-01-02T06:38:19Z

i'm tired of sitting here, looking at my buddy list of 94 people and barely talking to any of them. so, because trillian rocks, i've got my new screen name signed on and will have it along with my old one for one week. in that week, i'll be adding only new people who actually USE aim to speak to their friends instead of just a medium to have on... just to have on. so, if you're interested in adding me, add my new screen name:

+ evening is thin

anyone is welcome to add me, long as you just talk to me every now and again ;p

cryptogenic @ 2005-12-09T09:46:00

2005-12-09T15:46:33Z

My LiveJournal 12 Days
My True Love gave to me...
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11 fragilityv420s a-groaning.
10 antichristesss a-grinding.
9 wandering_voxs a-falling.
8 eyelikearts a-calling.
7 redheadedchics a-bouncing.
6 wiltingflowers a-commenting.
5 tan my_wanderlust_s.
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round and round we go

2005-12-08T04:19:55Z

The Gentleman
Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLMm)

Steady & mature. You are The Gentleman.

For anyone looking for an even-keeled, considerate lover, you're their man. You're sophisticated. You know what you want both in a relationship and outside of it. You have a substantial romantic side, and you're experienced enough sexually to handle yourself in that arena, too. Your future relationships will be long-lasting; you're classic "marrying material," a prize in the eyes of many.

It's possible that behind it all, you're a bit of a male slut. Your best friends know that in relationships you're fundamentally sex-driven. You're a safe, reliable guy, who does get laid. In a lot of ways, you're like a well-worn, comfortable pair of socks. Did you ever jack off into one of those? All the time.

Your exact opposite:
The Last Man on Earth

Random Brutal Sex Dreamer

Your ideal mate is NOT a nut-job. He is giving and loving, like you, but also experienced. Avoid the The False Messiah at all fucking costs.

CONSIDER: The Gentleman, someone just like you.

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: fauxwinter3

cryptogenic @ 2005-12-03T19:51:00

2005-12-04T01:52:17Z

"I need a map of your head translated into english so i could learn to not make you frown. You'd feel better if you'd vent, put your frustrations into four letter words, and let them out on mine: the most weathered ears in town"

cryptogenic @ 2005-12-03T11:09:00

2005-12-03T17:11:04Z

-.- ... Olde Oaks sure can be frustrating.

turning molehills into mountains

2005-12-03T12:23:34Z

i shouldn't drink livewire in the middle of the night, i wake up with a slight stomach ache each time. BUT IT'S SO GOOD.

weekends are turn out to be rough. olde oaks saturdays and sundays, but that's alright. it's money. right when i need it.

i'm tired. and will post more when i get to work. yay for internet access. big yay.

cryptogenic @ 2005-12-01T12:28:00

2005-12-01T18:28:15Z

i'd forgotten how much incubus rocks. i remember now.

you wear sandals in the snow & a smile that won't wash away

2005-11-27T04:12:57Z

for those i haven't spoken to in a while. for those who give a shit.. i'm sorry i've been absent. i'm sorry i've been quiet. i'm sorry i've been to myself. i've been in something of a depression. a low point. i think i'm pulling out of it. think = hope.

i need a phoenix.

cryptogenic @ 2005-11-25T22:33:00

2005-11-26T04:33:31Z

i don't know how to see when i'm truly happy. :/

cryptogenic @ 2005-11-25T06:09:00

2005-11-25T12:10:05Z

Fourteen hour work day ahead of me. Jeesh.

we both carry a switchblade in our sleeves.

2005-11-24T06:34:02Z

i know it's completely cliché to post a "thankful" post, but goddamnit, this is the first year i have a shitload to be thankful for.

i'm thankful for finally, after 20 years, finally being at peace with my parents. i'm thankful for my work ethic sprouting in the past year and serving me QUITE well... (all thanks in said area due to a former roomate and close friend, nola newcomer). i'm thaknful for a chance at a life and being looked out for by someone/something. i'm thankful for the way things fell into place.

most of all, i'm thankful for him.

::grin::

it's always raining in my head

2005-11-23T04:08:56Z

if life could be caught in a moment, just for a few seconds... i'd give the rest of it. that doesn't make sense. but in my head, it does. i've never been happier with someone i'm with. never. and probably never will be again.

cryptogenic @ 2005-11-22T13:49:00

2005-11-22T19:49:32Z

anyone remember the band 'saves the day'? haha. they were fun.

stand in front of the light, stand still so i can see your sillhouette

2005-11-22T07:02:10Z

i fall in love with him just a little bit more each day.

just watched the season finale of Charmed, season 3. GARRR. Fucking cliffhangers, and season 4 probably won't come out for a while. damnit. and I don't trust cole. this can't be good for phoebe. she seems to tempted by evil. marr. i have a small life.

my eyebrow piercing doesn't hurt anymore, so it's easier to clean. hopefully it'll turn into a normal piercing soon enough. so i can change it 5 times a week. hehe. i'm gonna have fun with this.

i'm thinking a cartilage piercing to ballance, since my right eyebrow is done then a cartilage piercing on my left ear, near the top/back corner. i'm sure you can picture it. i'd have a small hoop there.

i dunno. we'll see.

i start wednesday at old oaks. well, training, at least. better put my thinkin' cap on. marr. i'm that good kind of nervous.

cryptogenic @ 2005-11-21T01:52:00

2005-11-21T07:53:53Z

boyfriend being really sweet +
watching 'the last one,' the final friends episode +
little sleep +
drinking vanilla spice eggnog too fast =

strange feeling. x.o

pieces are falling, i can't seem to make them stay.

2005-11-20T05:38:36Z

i got my eyebrow pierced today. spike barbell. ::grin:: i look evil. haha.

i think i should start writing again.
perhaps i haven't because i'm afraid
... of what i'll say